I am so confused at what is going on in our head- We are definitely a system but idk what kind. (Any term within the community that fits, &/or what I might be diagnosed with if I got a psych eval. I get that this community is not a tool for diagnosis & I am not asking you to diagnose me, I am just looking for insight.)

So it's confusing for me, like, my sense of identity changes if that makes sense? If somebody else fronts its not like I'm watching them through a window, it's like my personality *becomes* them. Wilbur says I'm being paranoid but I am very confused on my/our sense of identity & self.

For example, if Wilbur came & fronted right now, we wouldn't just kind of "switch places". I wouldn't stay Emerson, watching Wilbur control the body -- I would become Wilbur. Experience his thoughts & feelings. And be able to talk to Emerson from Wilbur's point of view.

And that's how we remember it, too -- We a memory & don't have much amnesia (besides for trauma, we do have secret keepers)

I also feel like our emotions are more interconnected? Sometimes we can tell what another headmate's emotions are.

Wilbur thought we might be a DID system because, well, I don't know why, but we looked it up & that is definitely not it.

-emerson (he/they)

P.s. There are more of us than just Wilbur & I. Wilbur is the only one who actually gets along with me, so that's why I keep using him as an example (he & Avvy have also been here the longest, so I know that he is not destructive like Avs. She is a persecutor, & very childish & immature).