I've been doing a lot of thinking lately into DID, OSDD, and other forms of multiplicity.

I think I might be a system, but I do not know for sure.

If I have experienced trauma, I do not remember it. There are big gaps in my memory, but I assumed that was normal. I did experience bullying, and some people say that is a form of trauma, but I still feel like it is "not enough" to warrant a system forming.

My brain is a nonsense mix of screaming and everything is on fire. I am diagnosed as ND, but I wonder a lot of I have a dissociative disorder.

I find myself splitting my brain up into categories. I feel so different around different people, especially at home and at school. *Screaming* I am afraid that I'm doing this intentionally to feel special, but I really am just doing it to sort out my confusing contradicting and conflicting thoughts/feelings.

What's happening with me? Am I endogenic? Am I dissociative? Should I try and stop doing this system-ing in my head because I don't know if I have trauma-caused disorder or I'm just making it all up.

/gen /genrq

- Marker