I have voices in my head. Not all of them are bad though, their names are Ky, Haruko, Lilith, Zane. Ky is me when i was a lot longer in my mind she has always wearing a white dress, i think her age is around 3-6 lm not sure, she looks just like me when i was younger blue eyes, blond hair, her gender is unknown but she looks very feminine, age is unknown as well, Haruko clams me done when i'm scared, sad, angry, and other bad emotions, in my mind he has nice white hair, light blue eyes, and has a style like the fashion dark academia, no clue what his age is, no idea his gender but he looks very mas, Zane a very rude, angry guy, he's got dark red hair and black brown eyes, he acts like a punk wanting to get in fights and tells me to punch somebody if i get angry but i never listen to him, he wears a black shirt, and black sweatpants, age unknown, he is a male, Lilith has gray hair and gray blueish eyes, she wears a white shirt and and blue jeans, she is female, age is unknown, she very outgoing, and she thinks we're better than everyone else, she very sexual, she has a fear of pills due to us getting really sick because we took a hole bottle of pills. Then there's me, Lucifer usually in control of the body, there was this one time I remember where Zane took control and put his hands on my little brother's neck because he was being rude and pissing me off. This has been stressing me out i wanna ask somebody for help but i'm afraid that someone will yell at me for faking it, people have been faking DID for a trend on many websites like discord, tiktok and more, what i said was all true, and i said before saying i don’t think it’s DID but something else maybe? i have very low amnesia but its still there, could somebody give me some links to where to read about my "thing"? sometimes i have amnesia when someone else take control and i forgot how i was feeling sometimes just forgot the hole thing. I did some looking up but nothing has really explained what I think and what I'm going through. I tried telling one friend but I backed out in the middle, and never said anything to anyone. this has been going on for a a year long time maybe around 2017-2019 not 100% sure at all. Please don't attack me, i plan to go to a real doctor once i believe their may be something wrong, or maybe a therapist, i cannot tell my parents due to them being my most trauma, all of these voices have their own trauma
Zane trauma is watching someone who he cares about get abused, ky trauma this bad neglected as a child, Lilith trauma is us over dosing so many times. My name is Lucifer, i'm a male, i have most of the control of the body i wrote this hole things im begging someone to help me out, thank you so much for reading
